Archive for September, 2009
是美的咯。。。
再次，在奔波的步伐，发现了很美丽的事情。。。
晚上7点，呈现在我眼前的是一片大海，几座大山，夕阳刚刚走到山的后面，腼腆的躲在后面。
内心是满满的，因为刚刚结束了和YB阿力夏的深入访问，聆听这位独特领袖的分享，刚刚对大马政治存有少许希望。。。
夕阳的光线强烈而不刺眼，我带着满满的内心，拖着那陪伴我走过枪林弹雨的小小电单车，在槟威大桥行驶。
甘尼申没有骗我，他说过，傍晚的海风不强，在槟威大桥驾电单车是一份很不错的体会。
就这样，我就电单车跑道上，行驶速度只有40。
话说夕阳的光线, 照耀了天上的层层云朵, 让他们都穿上了金黄色的光环，在空中漫游。
有人说，云朵是千变万化的。在大桥上的20分钟，我频频抬头望了望，云朵的形状总是不一样。
大海反射了夕阳的光线，微微清风吹起了阵阵的涟漪。我在想，海里的鱼儿，是否也和我一样，有着愉悦的心情呢？
愿自己的包容心，可以像海那么宽阔，那么无边无际。
随着夕阳慢慢依附在大山背后，云朵也变成了紫色，象征了黑色的布帘开始笼罩大地。
而我，这个时候也到家了。。。
当心情平静得可以好好欣赏大自然，不需要语言，不需要文字，就可以感受到宇宙存在的真理。
山河大地，万物之间的联系，这个大自然的规律，如此珍贵，如此奥妙。
这一切一切，都是美的咯。。。
Uncle Burger
Time: 7.45pm; Venue: Entrance of my apartment
ME: “Uncle, I nak order 1 burger ayam.”
While uncle is preparing burger…
ME: “Uncle dah buka puasa ke?”
UNCLE: “Dah buka puasa, tadi baru hisap rokok je.”
ME: “I belum buka puasa lagi la, haha.”
UNCLE: “Tak pe, nanti buka puasa dengan burger nanti, haha.”
While waiting for burger to be cooked, uncle switch radio channel to MyFM.
ME: “Wah, uncle dengar lagu cina ke?”
UNCLE: “Ya la, I ni international punya, haha”
ME: “Bukan saja international, 1 Malaysia juga, haha”
After the burger is done…
UNCLE: “总共2块半。”
ME: “Uncle tau cakap mandarin ke?”
UNCLE: “会讲一点点啦。。。哈哈。”
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The slogan of “1 Malaysia” was always heard in the TV and radio, it seem to be very far from us.
This will be very far from us, if we really do not take the initiative to communicate.
This is actually just around us, and it is very near to us.
1 Malaysia, is not just a slogan, but it is our lifestyle, our unique lifestyle.
The Bear Cloud
The tears rolling in her big eyes, but she tried so hard to dry out the tears.
However, she showed her smiling face, a smile which was full with passion and enthusiasm.
“I feel very tired and guilty, I wash my face everyday with tears secretly,” her first drop of tears seen after she spoke out this sentence.
Crying should be done secretly, warriors were not allowed to cry in public.
Taking care of her family and her success career, these are the hardest choices she would like to make in her life.
She will not make any mistake again to hurt her beloved family members, and finally she had decided to let go the expertise which she always proud with.
“My girl likes to watch cloud with me,” she smiled again when her girl’s image appear in her mind.
One day her girl said, “Mama, I hope u can always be with me, and tell me the story of bear cloud.”
She touched her hair softly and said, “Mama promise you.”
At the moment, she told herself, she would never hurt this five-year-old daughter, after losing her first son last year.
Tears drop again…
She was the warrior in the battle for more than 20 years, and her children lost thousands of chances to watch the bear cloud with mama.
“I can’t bear any chances to lost my child again,” she stress again.
Perhaps, woman’s intrinsic is to protect the family, even though women can become warriors in battle.
There will be more and more bear cloud in the bluish sky for a mama and a little girl.
清流融入生活
表面上远离了，其实一直融入在生活中。。。
我现在的住家楼下有道场，还真的是第一次道场那么靠近自己的住家。但常常因为工作太忙，很多时候没有机会到楼下听闻佛法。
这几个月来，亲近善知识、拜访道场的次数真的少了很多。
开始在浑浊的社会中溜达，应该说，这是另一个道场吧。总觉得，这段日子，虽然没有“形式化”的提升和学佛，但身口意还是天天在修行中。
就这样，我来到了另外一种道场修行。。。
实习的日子中，总遇到了排山倒海的境界。一次又一次的考验，让自己不断感恩、不断忆念三宝。
严谨地照顾身口意，是每日的自我提醒。即使身在佛法遍地、即使佛法不是社会主流、即使身边的人如何被贪嗔痴蒙蔽，我还是提醒自己忆念佛法。
也许是过去修持所累积的因缘，造就了察觉每个起心动念的敏锐。而这种敏锐，让自己在脚步急促的同时，并不失前进中的处之泰然。
暂时“离开”佛教圈子，并没有让我忘记佛法，反而有了前所未有的珍惜和感恩。
虽然所谓社会的主流已经主宰着大家，这没有所谓的对与错，但我很清楚，内心的一股清流，在这段时间里，如何融入我的生活，如何让我将一切事物看得更自在。
曾经告诉婷，我不只是在实习未来的专业，同时也在浑浊环境中实习佛法的修行。
就是这样，在奔波的浑浊社会，清流深深融入了我的生活。
感恩，还不足以表达我对佛法的肯定和珍惜，也暂时无法用语言来表达。
这种清流融入生活的感觉，真的很自在。
